You guys can already tell that I enjoy making tunes and if you stuck around for a long time you might also know that I sometimes dabble with photoshop and graphic design. 

Now the next ability I realy want is to be able to draw. I want to draw my own characters, I want to be able to tell a story or convey my feelings throught drawings and therefore I look up to people who can, like @deathink 

The desire never truly fades, but a lack of self esteem often pushed me back or discouraged me from actively trying to practice no matter how much I preped myself for the challenge (psychically) .  I visited a bookstore today, not as a visitor, but as a companion to my friend who realy likes reading. We share a lot of confidentality between each other, so she knows a lot about me and I about her. 

So while she promised that she'll be done quick (they never are) she pushed me infront of a shelf with a lot of motivational stuff and there was this yellow book. This book was about how to master any craft you want in 20 hours. Out of curiosity and because IT DID call out to my desires about drawing, I picked it up. But I didnt read anything other than the introduction for the reader by the author, because that part alone had everything I needed.

It made me realise that everytime I gave up going foward, it was not because I had low self confidence, it was the frustration caused by running into an obstacle, which at the time, I was unable to overcome ( drawing fingers, shapes, projecting angles) 

So if I try again and I will run into something I CANNOT DO LIKE DEATHINK DID, I will not back away this time, because this time I will remind myself that its just a feeling, that will fade, its natural to have it and if I realy want to get closer to the level of my idols, I have to keep working at it and I will identify and contain the frustration that would normally make me quit. With that I believe I can move foward.

So what about you? Got something you realy wanna learn, but you droped it because you felt like you don't meet the skillset?

My soul has been lost.

I bring you two versions. One with and one without vocals. 

With Vocals and Without Vocals 

Still here, Not much to show, with so much stuff to do IRL I mostly reserve my musical whims to the game I'm helping with. I'm still whistling my cat's anthem ya know, so I didn't give that up. I want to release one last submission for this year, thats how I seal the deal every year, so stay tuned haha.

here's what I'm currently busy with

Aside from secret projects, I'm working on a theme song for one of my cats. Yeah you are reading this right...

I have two cats, one of them can be seen on my profile page. The theme is for the younger one, who is much more adventureous and fearless than the ginger cat. You know how you have over 10 different nicknames for your favorite pet right? Well I gave one a heroic theme, which I somehow started and continued humming durich each and every encounter with this little catkatizer. Few days ago I told myself, goddamit, I am a musician, I can make that tune into a song or a theme! And so I did and am currently periodicaly working on it. If you are interested in this silly, personal crusade of mine, stay tuned or... just wait for me to upload the track, which will be as always, free for users and content creators on this site. The name of the glorious cat theme will be based on one of his nicknames, which is based of his real name... It will be known as Macukin!

Macek

His name was Elfire and I don't know what happened to him, but his legacy is rippin!

https://elfire.newgrounds.com/audio/

@hankngx created a swell poster for madness day, but that is not his only MD creation, I true fan of madness combat should give him a chance.

Check him out!

https://hankngx.newgrounds.com/

It's madness day again.

I prepared something of my own for the celebration, but just slaping the link to that and posting this would be too easy. Instead of that, what I'm actualy going to do is that I will also feature my personal madnessday faves for this year, to give you all a shortcut to today's batch of awesomeness should you be happening to come this way :)

So here is the music done by me 

MadnessDay art by ChazDude @chazdude

Sick MD tune by @lich

MD poster by @mintyeggs

Badass looking MD shooter by @heavybro featuring music from fellow Czech @CryNN

a realy well made movie by @Jsoull and his team

neat poster by @itsamenatan

awesome MD poster by @tarantulaben

The Madness day has only just begun, so if I find more awesome stuff, I will definitely update this post.

Big thanks to @hankngx for giving me the permission to use his art for the Youtube upload

This is just a heads up post. It's going to be better quality wise than last year and it won't be Dnb or dubstep. 

I would count the number of my followers and the praise I'd get for my performance and that was it, I was satisfied.Nowadays I look at that number with addition to the number of followers on my other sites, but I am no longer happy.

I look at that number and I tell to myself "Well having over 2k followers is cool, but only like 15 of them are talking to me"

So those of you, who come by whenever I appear, with whatever stupid creation or opinion I have and make yourself known with a response, review or a simple emoticon check, thank you.

I chose 10 tracks that I never uploaded before (on youtube) and put them there.

It's not like I expect any traffic at all, I just like doing this kind of thing. Going back to my old stuff, revisiting my old thoughts and also finding reasons to use the video editor in fruity loops as much as possible. If you are my follower, you know that my audio library here is a mess and I have absolutely no quality control. One thing isa good track, the other half baked shit that I just wanted ot make on a whim, but no labeling, no separation, good stuff gets lost here.

So perhaps even tho you know me for a year or two, you didn't gather enought strenght to rumamge thru "everything" yet, so take this as a little help from me, the owner of all that mess and take a look.

There are 10 tracks inside. Not in order of the year uploaded (sorry) but the timestamping in description of the video has the number of the year it was made on it. (just a trivia)  I wonder which one of them do you like most?