I suffer from random inspiration attacks, makes me stop with one thing and begin the next D;
Any of my music, that has download enabled on this site can be used in other Newgrounds related content (movie, games) without my permission, but you still have to credit me
Joined on 3/1/08
Posted by DESHIEL - January 24th, 2019
You guys can already tell that I enjoy making tunes and if you stuck around for a long time you might also know that I sometimes dabble with photoshop and graphic design.
Now the next ability I realy want is to be able to draw. I want to draw my own characters, I want to be able to tell a story or convey my feelings throught drawings and therefore I look up to people who can, like @deathink
The desire never truly fades, but a lack of self esteem often pushed me back or discouraged me from actively trying to practice no matter how much I preped myself for the challenge (psychically) . I visited a bookstore today, not as a visitor, but as a companion to my friend who realy likes reading. We share a lot of confidentality between each other, so she knows a lot about me and I about her.
So while she promised that she'll be done quick (they never are) she pushed me infront of a shelf with a lot of motivational stuff and there was this yellow book. This book was about how to master any craft you want in 20 hours. Out of curiosity and because IT DID call out to my desires about drawing, I picked it up. But I didnt read anything other than the introduction for the reader by the author, because that part alone had everything I needed.
It made me realise that everytime I gave up going foward, it was not because I had low self confidence, it was the frustration caused by running into an obstacle, which at the time, I was unable to overcome ( drawing fingers, shapes, projecting angles)
So if I try again and I will run into something I CANNOT DO LIKE DEATHINK DID, I will not back away this time, because this time I will remind myself that its just a feeling, that will fade, its natural to have it and if I realy want to get closer to the level of my idols, I have to keep working at it and I will identify and contain the frustration that would normally make me quit. With that I believe I can move foward.
So what about you? Got something you realy wanna learn, but you droped it because you felt like you don't meet the skillset?
Posted by DESHIEL - December 27th, 2018
Still here, Not much to show, with so much stuff to do IRL I mostly reserve my musical whims to the game I'm helping with. I'm still whistling my cat's anthem ya know, so I didn't give that up. I want to release one last submission for this year, thats how I seal the deal every year, so stay tuned haha.
here's what I'm currently busy with
Posted by DESHIEL - October 17th, 2018
Aside from secret projects, I'm working on a theme song for one of my cats. Yeah you are reading this right...
I have two cats, one of them can be seen on my profile page. The theme is for the younger one, who is much more adventureous and fearless than the ginger cat. You know how you have over 10 different nicknames for your favorite pet right? Well I gave one a heroic theme, which I somehow started and continued humming durich each and every encounter with this little catkatizer. Few days ago I told myself, goddamit, I am a musician, I can make that tune into a song or a theme! And so I did and am currently periodicaly working on it. If you are interested in this silly, personal crusade of mine, stay tuned or... just wait for me to upload the track, which will be as always, free for users and content creators on this site. The name of the glorious cat theme will be based on one of his nicknames, which is based of his real name... It will be known as Macukin!
Posted by DESHIEL - September 22nd, 2018
It's madness day again.
I prepared something of my own for the celebration, but just slaping the link to that and posting this would be too easy. Instead of that, what I'm actualy going to do is that I will also feature my personal madnessday faves for this year, to give you all a shortcut to today's batch of awesomeness should you be happening to come this way :)
The Madness day has only just begun, so if I find more awesome stuff, I will definitely update this post.
Big thanks to @hankngx for giving me the permission to use his art for the Youtube upload